Last week, I decided I wanted to do a 5k over this weekend. So I hoped on Active.com and found the "Big" 5k, right here in Huntsville. It was a charity run for big brothers/big sisters. I love that organization, so I thought this race would be perfect.
For a while now, I have been feeling very frustrated with myself during 5ks, because I could not perform in races like I do in my work-outs. It was all mental. There was no reason I could barely run a lick in races, when I have been able to run 3 miles working out many, many times! So my motivation in signing up for this race was to break that mental barrier. Therefore, I decided to go alone.
In no way, has doing 5ks with my husband or Jana held me back. But I knew to break this mental barrier, I would need to dig deep and be focused only on myself and my running. I have never done a race alone, so I didn't know what it would be like.
I had a somewhat fitful night's sleep on Friday. I kept waking up to glance at the clock, terrified I was going to miss the alarm. I guess it was a case of pre-race jitters. My alarm went off at 5:45, and I got up, got dressed, and drove over to Huntsville (the race started at 7).
I tried not to put too much pressure on myself, as I walked the parking lot trying to get a decent warm-up in. I tried not to think about the race at all. But soon it was time to line up, and before I knew it the start horn blew. I just started jogging. I told myself my first goal was to get to the half mile mark. It is a pretty short distance, and I always feel better after the half mile mark.
When I got to a half mile, I still felt decent, so I just kept going. The first mile and a half went by pretty fast. But once I got to 2 miles, it started to feel difficult and I had to dig in. The course wasn't entirely flat, and I hate HILLS (even small ones). But I kept going anyway.
I once told my husband he shouldn't talk to me when I'm hungry, tired, or going up hills.
When I saw the finish line, I wanted to cry. When I crossed the finish line, I almost did cry. I did it in 49 minutes (a 15:40 minute mile average). I had done it, I had finally broke that mental barrier. I felt amazing. And tired. And sweaty.
I immediately called my husband, mom, and texted Jana the news! I could not wait to
share it with them (even if they were still asleep). They were so happy to celebrate with me. I wanted
to tell everyone!
I walked over to the food tent to grab a banana, and a lady I did not know came up to me. She said that she had been walking behind me the whole time and she was so inspired by me. Someone was inspired by little old me.Hearing that made me feel amazing.
Today was the best day, I have truly never been more proud of myself. I just can't wait to see how I will do in the next race. I guess now I have to work toward finishing a 10k, running!
